I Swear I Won’t Bother You Again! – Chapter 12

What Is Forgiven, What Is Not

After coming back home, her parents do not seem to be acting strange. They act like there was nothing wrong, but that is probably because Maryjun did not say anything.
Until just a moment ago, it has been the source of Violette’s frustration, but she is now grateful.
In the first place, the uproar from before does not have anything to do with Violette. It seems it has not been reported yet, but who knows what Maryjun will do. However, it is not something it is at least irrelevant.
Thanks to Yuran, Violette managed to get out from that place, but there seems to be some misunderstanding between Maryjun…… and the prince. Violette honestly doesn’t want to know, she just hopes it won’t become a trouble.

However, things have slightly changed since that day.

“O-…… Onee-sama.”

“……Maryjun.”

For some reasons, her sister has come to talk to her more often.
No…… Violette has drawn the lines between them last time. Violette usually ignores her, but Maryjun keeps prying that distance closer and closer.
Maryjun gives off the feeling that she wants to get along with Violette as sisters.

“Good morning.”

“Yeah…… Good morning.”

“Today’s weather is nice, seems it might be a sunny day.”

“True.”

Maryjun stands next to her having fun, and her smile is so warm like today’s sunshine she referred to.
It doesn’t seem like she is offended by the unfriendly Violette, or perhaps she did not notice. She is just pursuing Violette nonchalantly.

(This is tiring……)

Maryjun is really good-hearted, but as expected Violette feels tired from her smile.
Violette wants to end the conversation early and tries to talk as less as possible, but this sister of her from different mother keeps talking endlessly.
Violette should have been more cautious before, thinking about it, the reason that they have never hold a proper conversation was entirely because of Violette.
It’s plausible that Maryjun’s attitude might change if Violette changes too.
It is a miscalculation. Violette thought that she would not have any problem unless she caused one herself, but it’s easier said than done.
Nevertheless, if she ignores Maryjun like last time, there is no way of knowing what she would say to her father, even Violette means no harm to Maryjun.
She feels even more fatigued just from imagining.

“Violette-sama…… Maryjun-sama. Excuse me for interrupting your conversation.”

“Marin-san, good morning!”

“Good morning.”

Marin might be a model servant, but she doesn’t seem to have interests other than Violette. Still, she is not the type to show it on her face in the first place, thus none can figure out whether she’s happy, sad, or angry.
She is the opposite compared to Maryjun who always smiles brightly without considering the time and place.

“Breakfast has been prepared, so I was planning to inform you……”

Marin always the one who makes sure Violette waking up, prepares her breakfast, and helps Violette dressing up. Some have asked her to split her duties together, but Marin has never agreed. On the other hand, she is the one who wishes to be involved in all matters related to Violette. She has been like this for a long time that Violette has given up reprimanding her.
Marin has been the one attending Violette up until recently.
However, it has been different since Maryjun’s social debut. It’s not really something big, but Maryjun has been coming to talk to Violette too often. Even today, she comes to visit Violette’s room earlier before Marin comes…… just like what is happening currently.”

“I’m sorry, seems I was a bit early.”

“No, I’m sorry that I came too late.”

It seems Violette has understood the current situation. Pleasing Maryjun with faking a soft smile and gentle tone is tiring her, and Violette feels like her exhaustion just escalated. It is probably also because she is in the same place with the source of exhaustion.

“What is today’s breakfast?”

“My apologies. I only serve Violette-sama’s breakfast.”

“I see. Now that I think about it, onee-sama’s shares are always different from the rest of us.”

It’s easy for Violette, who has been used to it, to understand, but it seems Maryjun, who hasn’t familiar with Marin, to get the idea. Maryjun doesn’t have problem with listening, but the way she speaks too frankly would infuriate anyone’s composure. To Marin, Maryjun is the enemy who hurt her cherished one, but to Violette, she is just the duke’s second daughter. If Maryjun can at least understand what is behind Marin’s attitude, she would have realized that she cannot survive in this house without having any skill to read the situation.”

“……It’s already time for breakfast, and I thought it would be nice for both onee-sama and I could eat the same thing.”

Prick. A slight sharp pain can be felt even though there is no scar.
The way Maryjun shows her obvious disappointment. In addition the way she hides her mouth with her hand only highlight her feeling.

“It can’t be helped! Let’s have a taste of each other’s food.”

Her naivety is just like a child’s. She is too honest. She is really straightforward talking something like that even though she does not mean it.
Violette knows herself that what Maryjun’s thoughts are wonderful, and Violette cannot deny those facts. As Maryjun said, she just wants to share meals Violette. It is a nice thing to do with family members.

However, her honesty is just cruel.

“…………”

“……Violette-sama, it’s time to go.”

“……yeah, thank you.”

Violette smiles at Marin, who gave her a helping hand, but Marin doesn’t return her smile back.
Even she says not to worry inside her heart, still no one could hear it. However, there is no need to say it out loud, and this is the only way to change the subject away from Maryjun after all.

It’s fine. No one is hurt. It is not necessary to hurt.

Violette is amazed by Maryjun’s naivety to believe in her family members, and Violette is not that naïve enough to reacts to every nonsense she spouted.
Previously, she would have refused Marin’s help, but Violette understands Marin’s concern this time.
All those delicate, sensitive, and annoying emotions were left on that prison.

(…… I know.)

She has experienced of failure before. Right now, she can accept the truth without any resistance this time, and she does not feel any anger accepting it.

(She is forgiven, I guess.)

It is not wrong to say what you think and to do something you want. If you say it, someone would besure to grant it.
It’s normal for human to wish something. That is why, if Violette grows up normally, she would not have wished for something that twisted.

Violette now knows that what she wished would not come true. She cannot even grasp that even it is there. Just merely wishing is already useless.
Right now, she is aware how meaningless it is to pursue something that will not even come true.

It is rather surprising that she needs to restart her own life to admit what she wished turned out to be meaningless. Vaguely, she feels that her childhood plays a big role on that situation.
She thinks that there would not be as effective punishment as this feeling of regret.
Right now, she can reconsider her mistake and worthlessness.

“……Violette-sama, if that’s fine, how about having your breakfast in your room?”

“Thank you, Marin…… but I’m alright.”

She said so with a soft and sad voice.
That proposal sounds pleasing, and it is really attractive, but Violette needs to think about what will happen, even they are only troublesome developments.
She can do it to her step-sister, but it will be troublesome if she does so to her father.

“I’m actually looking forward for today’s breakfast. I wonder how delicious it is.”

Violette’s share is the only one different from the menu. At glance, it looks the same, but you can see Marin’s thought from the details. Like, they are in smaller portions, and everything Violette dislikes is substituted with her favorites in addition with the cute arrangement.
As someone who has been serving Violette’s food all the time, this loving admirer would not miss even a little when it comes to this.

“……Yes, please look forward to it today as well.”

“Hehee, I have to thank the chef.”

Nothing can beat delicious meals. No matter how hard it is to breathe here, such a thing is forgotten when she meets the delicious meal.
Right now, what Violette can do for her father is…… to be a cameo in this family setup for Maryjun whom her father loves. She just need to stay quiet as she watches those three smiling so happily.”

“Onee-sama, let’s hurry!”

“Yeah, I’m going.”

Accepting Maryjun’s hand, Violette tries to pace herself.
Step by step, she starts to feel nothing because she is imagining about today’s breakfast to distract herself from reality.


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